Growing up sucks

And I still remember the flavor of the liquor filling my throat
Watching the stars, laying down on the pavement, as my thoughts get way too cold
Every step I could take wouldn't change all of the things that were never my fault
Falling in love yet again, just to hold on to something a bit ‘til I end up alone Say is it still heartbreak if nobody loved you and you sat alone in your room every night?
I do this shit way too often; I cut through my heartstrings and watch it collide with the truth; stay inside
Until I think that it's okay, but how would I know that?
Cuz I haven't felt a thing for the past three years; I'm stuck
Growing up sucksAnd I still remember thе time when evеryday I didn't feel like myself
Ain't nobody to trust with these thoughts in my mind and I had faith in all these lies that I tell
I assume that you don't think about me too often, but I certainly think about you
How do I overthink everything, in the end though, it feels like I didn't fucking think all this through?Say is it still heartbreak if nobody loved you and you sat alone in your room every night?
I do this shit way too often; I cut through my heartstrings and watch it collide with the truth; stay inside
Until I think that it's okay, but how would I know that?
Cuz I haven't felt a thing for the past three years; I'm stuck
Growing up sucks